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2 days before my first exam this semester.What do you think about this semester?

Killer semester.22 credits with all core subject.One fail,for sure a failure.My vision for this semester is very clear.I want to come back to where im start.Last semester,just a lucky semester.Forget about the past.Most important thing now,just doing the best to improve myself.

I really enjoy of helping others.So,i decide to make a lecture and discussion for those who really-really need my help.Before this,i just handle around 5-20 group of students,but this time, very large group with 50++ students.

With big numbers of student, i realize that its not an effective learning.I also do not expect to handle this large of numbers. But, like usual, i'll try my best to give more understanding to them. I really-really hope they can learn something from my class.

For the next semester, we must doing this earlier. So, i can make class limitation, like 10 people for one session. That is what we called effective learning process.

Why im doing this? I believed that its my responsibility when i really know something. All i need to do is, share with others. Give them understanding. At least i can reduce their burden. The rest its depend on themselves. I assume you in the very dark area. You cant see anything to find your way back home. What im try to do is, just giving you a torch light. The rest, you must find your way by yourself.

Overpressure - the best word to describe about myself right now. I cant fight myself - in terms of laziness and procrastination - my real character. So, all I'm doing just sit and see what happens without trying to take positive action towards problem arise.

So,pressure keep pressing me and i not trying to push back the pressure.Just like I'm  losing in match of push-press. The world like a very dangerous place for me, not because of those who do evil, but because of myself who look on and do nothing.

Although i know i cannot do everything, but still i can do something, and because i cannot do everything, i will not refuse to do the something that i can do. I always try, at least to keep in my mind, what I gonna do. Then what my action, how it react with my character and how about my destiny?


Luckily, my real character does not really affected my Test 1 performance. I'm not saying i got great marks. But I'm satisfy based on what I'm doing.

But for me, you cant thinking too much about result because if you live for result, it would be to sentence yourself to continuous frustration. Your only sure reward is in your actions and not from them.

Sometimes we understand and we can do, careless can kill our result. Just because you make mistake doesn't mean you are a mistake. Mistake are a part of being human. Appreciate your mistake and do not repeat the same mistake. So, do not judge yourself based on the result, but based on your ability.

Just trying to motivate myself.
Sincere





 

I do lots of reading.I found very interesting story about life.The story about mayonnaise jar and 2 cups of coffee.

2009. May i say that this year was an enigma year? Out of body and out of mind. Lot of things happen in this year. I still remember that i celebrate the 2009 New Year countdown at KL with Dpunk, Ami and Pak Nun. Ya, at the time i was in Klang Valley doing my practical. I spend my time there till 23rd March.

Then, i spent most of my time at home, waiting the result to further study. On June, i'm going back to Perlis for another 3 years degree course.

Cultural shock was inevitable for me. It seem like such fun until you lose what you had won. Its starts in my soul and i lose all control. The situations were really different as before. Class were really crowded.

Seriously, i'm start losing my focus. Procrastination and laziness become worse. I lose interest to go classes. Everything was disaster but luckily, i was able to recharge my energy back at the very last minute and again luckily, i was able to hiding in a safer place under covers staying safe and warm.

About my personal life, there were happiness and sadness. There  was something that really testing my thought, feeling, soul and heart beating. All these experiences slowly change mine to become better person.

2010. I'm coming. Back to where i'm start. Happy New Year.

Able to breathe again. I need rest. Last two weeks seem the busiest week in this semester. Lot of things must be completed before the dateline. Couldn't sleep for two days just for English report.

Also, busy with the preparation with my first lecture in this semester. I'm happy that i able to do it again after a long retirement. I spent most of the time this week just to doing preparation. Ya, good preparation is must to give my best during lecture. But the difference is I'm teaching just one subject which is math.

About my lecture, I'm happy to see lots of student have a spirit to gain knowledge.Willing to come is a great contribution to me.Keep asking and doing till all the problems solved. Attended by around 20 students come from Microe, Electronic and System E. Thanks for coming. Hope benefits to all of us.

Always thinking where i do meet him/her before?Its become frequent now.I don't know why, but it happens lately. Seem that i keeping losing old memories. Anyone, please help me! 

We all Muslim meet again with the holy month Ramadhan. As a Muslim, i'm really happy, of course. But, i feel sad, too. Because, i not able to celebrate Ramadhan with my family around me. Insyaa Allah, just 2 days fasting at home before leaving to Perlis again. I'm so sad but also happy because still have an opportunity to do that even short of time.

Still, i have friends who face the same problem, so we can share our sadness together. But, what does it matter. Actually, it doesn't matter at all. Whether you with or without your family , you can still feel the Ramadhan gracefully.

Anyway, let's celebrate this holy month together. Share the happiness and the blessing of this days. I hope this Ramadhan will give me hidayah to be better person and forbearance to facing all the upcoming obstacles. Amin.

Happy Ramadhan to all Muslim. Please, forgive all my fault, i really not mean to. For my parents, give your blessing upon me, so i can get through of these coming day during Ramadhan in a peacefulness. I love you all with all my heart.

Just stop hoping and waiting for something not sure. Continue life as before and proceed to new phase of life. Hope someday incarnate again the happiness and enjoyments. Fill with the excitement of facing all the ordeal and gain all this experiences to do better next time.